Where Light Ceases to Stray

 Here is a song I wrote for Angel for our 1-year anniversary (and which in theory will be on Spotify as a vocal only track - the first one I've done in SEVEN years). Find Me Shadoe Lass In the beginning I was a red hot mess I guess I was living Let’s get it off my chest One day with a vision And now you’re in my head The room started spinning Was someone dead Now on through the weekends I’ve got you more and more What is this I’m feeling It’s like I’m getting sore I’m Hardly believing That You want something more I guess I was dreaming But now I know I always knew you’d find me I left the can behind me Because now I am finally Someone free I always hoped you’d find me And that you would remind me Because now I am finally Someone’s need Flash forward a season And you came back to me The thing I was needing And now I won’t repeat Baby I’m screaming Because you wuvvy You’re touch is my healing And now I’m free The future is gleaming And the cards all show The two of us being Everythin...

 Welcome back to my blog I guess. This is a short little storm that's been brewing. Angel and I have been dating for 8 months and I can't really remember the last time I wrote about her sooooo. En Vue Shadoe Lass I kiss the paper and I call it you. It seems that it's all that I can do, It's not like I can run the ocean and sun hold me away from you. So I kiss the paper and it tastes like you. Not like I'd know but I guess it's true. It's still kind of fun pretending I'm dumb, and I can be next to you. When I kiss the paper and I think of you, your eyes are in mine(d) it's true. They sparkle they flood my blood starts to rush and I heat up EN VUE.

I did a writing (shrug). Shadowheart Shadoe Lass My heart is black Its filled with hate It makes my thoughts Disintegrate The dizziness It penetrates My mind and soul And body aches. Am I alone Or in the way Of everyone And everything It’s been so long- I start to shake And all because I lost the game. Now how much better off would I be tonight If I closed off everyone on every side How much more could I do on my own If I chased the cold grey light of dawn. Would it matter if I hid inside my head. chasing down the voice that used to be a friend. Since the beginning there was only one. Until it turned on me, multiplied and waged a war. It burns like hell And toxic waste It sears my skin And melts my brain. The night is warm I can’t escape Its in my blood And in my veins. Now I recall Another name Was it my own Or my deranged… My inner thoughts; My demons make An agenda To help me hate. So back to back And base to base I flee again I run the race. They’re keeping time And keeping pace. ...

Just a little poem I wrote a girl the other day.  KissFart Shadoe Lass Ur always on my mind And I never mind the time Cuz my feelings are alive If I feel you by my side I don’t even have to try Oh how I think I live and die By the time of you and I And I think it makes me cry Cuz I’d never even lie I just wanna make you mine 

 I made a podcast called "Never Time to Give Up," which is now streaming on all the major platforms. It is essentially a 15-min daily phone call from me to the world. I won't describe it here, I only give it mention as it may serve as the evolution of the blog, as I prepare to potentially take a job where I am on the road for almost a year! I already don't have time to write, and don't know if I will again ("Just know I am participating -Perks of Being a Wallflower 2012). I hope the blog-ish podcast can serve as a crossover from the creativity-based content I put here and the aviation-type stuff I have on YouTube as well as just a general main platform as it is lower maintenance than either (no writing or video), and can stand alongside Instagram, but less formal and geared toward prospective jobs. My Instagram I maintain to a standard of professional appearance, but off the bat I intend this show to be less formal and planned. If I don't write here again...

4:00 am Taco Bell + beach runs caused this 100%. there was definitely NOTHING else. the problem with this piece is I was torn between summarizing the entire year, and the one THING recently. the problem with this piece is I don't feel like I have the words for either. I haven't had any words for a while, hence why this is my first post in 3 months. I may not even leave this one up. Fall Shadoe Lass That it is so that I do still yet unbeknownst to you. I carry on like a fool and build every road right back to you. the leaves change and I can't remember why im addicted to this romance the earth cools and we plant the seeds of future we thought would be grand. now I must admit I wasn't expecting an invitation back   yes I stole top gun I also hardly expected this year to fall into disrepair so fast the bells are ringing or maybe I hallucinated that the only thing I can't do the only thing I can't do. is relax.

 I made this because I needed a good one for myself, and wanted to contribute to the community. So here is what I will be using going forward to make sure I'm ready to fly. Any suggestions for improvement are welcome. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1og9cmr9gxm_SDgv8rOCa83Dge8WTTBPQ/view?usp=sharing

how far gone are you? well all the way apparently. I may actually give up after this. Anyway, enjoy the power of scatterbrain. Blossom Shadoe Lass hot sauce pit boss criss cross applesauce hugo boss randy moss very lost in the sauce dental floss rental NOS ambiance hot rods. rick ross get lost it's Voss albatross. could you not? 

Here's a treat because no one is still looking. Here's to form AND function in a time when neither are together but merely sleep with each other from time to time. Rhyme and Reason Shadoe Lass One too many times, I've seen the lines... They grow on your face, shadows on the pavement, when the sun goes away. To the bedroom, for your headroom... Now go to your mind, I know you sit inside, the place you chose to hide. Three hours of silence, strong like violence... Only make it certain, to slay and burn the curtains, so now please stay my friend.